Bipolar Disorder

There’s this new website that entered Time.com 2008 best websites. The name of the website is psychcentral.com. And actually, since the launching of Dream Theater album the Six Degrees of Inner Turbulence (6 derajat kekacauan dalam diri, emang penyakit jiwa yang dibahas) There is one disease that I think I have.

It’s Bipolar Disorder.

Its one kind of feeling where your mood swings really affect your world. The very first mood swing I’ve felt is when I end my second relationship with women.

A day I feel really optimism. A day later I felt really pessimism.

A day I become very hostile to a person. A day later I will be fine with that same person.

A day I have this very high self confidence. Another day I will feel a very low self confidence.

A day I am creative, full of energy and thoughts. Another day I just sit counting times to pass the day.

It’s a clear that I am suffering from the Bipolar Disorder once.

So I change my Life.

I woke up in the morning, finding times for myself fixing my moods.

Smiling forcing myself to control my own bipolar disorder.

For 2 years, I have been better.

I can work my work.

I can build a relationship.

But then, It all comes again. DAMN!

I guess understanding yourself is the very first treatment of trying to change yourself.

PS:

I told myself to not engage the relationship.

But I ignore myself.

The only mistake I have is I ignore myself not realizing that I still have the potential of becoming Bipolar.

PS2:

The bipolar quiz for those who needs to asses themselves can be found in here