Failing in Relationships

Some of my friends in my early adulthood during my campus life saying that I?m Playboy. But that term actually come out when I was living surrounded by women. Not living with them as much as I want to.

Dan beberapa kali ini gue ngerasa failing on relationships. Beberapa relationship emang terpaksa kandas ditengah jalan karena memang perbedaan keinginan. Some can be solved, resolved but some can not.

I?m kinda Immature in relationships. Eventhough I am an adult my Intelligence in relationships actually not better than any early adulthood nowadays. This is happens because I actually start a love relationship not so long ago while teen nowadays start their love relationships much more earlier than my time.

Most of the mistakes happen in my relationships is actually coming from one self. We presume that people are the same. A problem in one relationship with some men would become a problem in another relationship. You know, Recently I?ve watched an independent movie called, ?A complete history of my sexual failure?. And there is one women in the movie thinking that when he hadn?t had sex with her it is something wrong to her.

And then I snapped in my bed thinking….Have I done the same mistake with that guy?….I mean most guy in Indonesia thinks that most Indonesian girls would prefer abstinence in sex…..

But then again every relationship is unique…Not every man is a cheater…My last relationship failed because I was pushed around to not talking to women….Which actually I am not a cheater…..

Another relationships failed because I have prematurely knowing too much truth that I could handle….

Some signs of problem that we recognize sometimes doesn?t even become a problem….Some guy is yelling and then he could become a wife hitter is not always happen….I am an ex-band player, I speak loud than most people because I scream a lot on a studio….I am coming from a sumatranese family that is common to yell to define the problem clearly….but that doesnt mean I would become a wife hitter…..

All I?m saying is that, failing in relationship is something that naturally happens just like when you start riding bike….Even expect failures in relationship…

The only question is that, are you willing to fix the relationship?. Is the relationship is worth enough to be fixed?

Give us ?the nice guy breed? a chance will you?
PS:
To Chris Waitt
Women don?t want you
At least the you now.
Women are desperately to dreams.
So show what you can be, not what you are.
PS2:

Sudah banyak orang di luar sana membantu orang lain….

Aku masih disini terdiam

PS3:

Banyak juga orang jahat diluar sana hidup dengan memakan sesamanya….

Dan aku masih terdiam disini….

Tidak bisa menghentikannya….

PS4:

It is common to expect things from me….

And if you think that I’m quite dependable….

You might expect more things from me than any other guys….

But those expectations, those things that i do for you doesn’t come free…..

I also expect you to do lots of things for me….

If this trade cannot be fulfilled one parties will be disappointed….

Another party will follow the path of the disappointed and became disappointed too….

It is spiraling never ending…..

PS5:

Lately lagi denger lagu ini dari album peterpan yang dua cd itu…lagi nyari lagu peterpan yang menyanyikan ulang lagu chrisye…ada satu yang bagus yang diputer di radio lokal sini…tapi gue lupa judulnya apa…jadinya nemunya lagu ini deh….

Peter pan feat Chrisye – Aku Menunggumu

Didalam sebuah cinta
terdapat bahasa
Yang mengalun indah
mengisi jiwa
merindukan kisah
kita berdua
Yang tak pernah bisa
akan terlupa

Bila Rindu ini
masih milikmu
Kuhadirkan sebuah
tanya untukmu
Harus brapa lama
aku menunggumu
aku menunggumu…

Didalam masa indah
saat bersamamu
Yang tak pernah bisa
akan terlupa
Kenangan masa yang
menghancurkan jiwa
Dengan segenap cinta

aku bertanya

Bila Rindu ini
masih milikmu
Kuhadirkan sebuah
tanya untukmu
Harus brapa lama
aku menunggumu

Dalam hati kumenunggu..
Dalam hati kumenunggu..aku…
Dalam lelah kumenunggu..
Dalam hati kumenunggu..aku…
masih menunggu….

Bila Rindu ini
masih milikmu
Kuhadirkan sebuah
harus berapa lama
Harus brapa lama

aku menunggumu
aku menunggumu

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