Realizations

Right now I don?t know what happens
I don?t want to meet anybody
I can?t cry on myself
And I can?t sense the presents

I understand that tears will set me free
When It started, only one drop of tears will enlighten me
Is it right honey?

Right now I don?t know what I want…
I can?t see and so blind….
I even don?t know my realizations….

I understand meeting with you will make my tears came out….
I know how much I want to see you right know….
Only you can enlighten my feelings…
Was it right honey?

Only you can give me the feelings that I want….
And Only me that can give you love endlessly….

PS:
I have this mixed up feelings of not knowing what I want and Knowing what I want….
Mixed up feeling of wanting to meet and forbid myself to meet

PS2:
Untuk cewek super special di Jakarta…
Haah, jadi pengen pulang lagi….

PS3:
Created while listening to Chatmonchy ? Last Love Letter

Women Competitive Advantage

These past six months I’ve been traveling 2 months in the other big city in Indonesia….While the other 4 months I’ve spent my time to stay developing my company business in small cities/village/sub urban…In this city the only wonderfully?gorgeous?women is actually my women from the city I’ve grown up, Jakarta. I mean she is everything, she is beautiful smart intelligent and absofuckingcute….

But today I hit Jakarta. The greatest city on earth where the poor and the rich live side by side…well I’ve just put that very well….actually they don’t really live side by side….But the most important thing is….In Jakarta women are all beautiful and all of it is very intelligent…Compared to that women I’ve spent time in Jakarta my “everything women” is not that “everything”….

That women don’t have other competitive advantage if she is both in Jakarta…

I wonder,

In big city, what does women’s competitive advantage is all about?

PS:

Good luck women

Apple Technologies : Because We Can!

Why built an energy efficient computer/laptop?

Why built a non toxi chemical gadget?

Why built thinnest notebook people have ever seen?

Why built Iphone which cannot do a lot of things but cool in design?

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Because We Can?

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Gue salut abis lah sama Apple. Bener-bener gila orang-orang marketingnya.

Ketika jamannya compatibility, standards, dan mass production diagung-agungkan siapa sih yang gak tau IBM??

Tapi masa itu dah berakhir buat IBM. Sekarang komputer gak harus Cuma cepet tapi juga harus keren. MP3 Player gak lagi Cuma buat MP3 Playing tapi something else more fun. Salut abis ama marketingnya Apple.

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Dan mereka dengan gilanya membuang banyak research untuk hal-hal yang gak penting tapi berhasil di kemas oleh orang marketingnya jadi sangat menarik dan menggiurkan. Pokoknya geek people pasti bakal bilang ?I want that sexy smart laptop?.

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Damn you mac!

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PS:

I want that powerful, sexy, energy efficient, cool Macbook Pro 17?

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PS2:

Gue pengen jadi team marketingnya mac. Pasti isinya orang2 gila semua deh itu.

The Life Equation Problem

Dari kecil gue suka banget sama yang namanya mathematics. Dari jaman gue SMP gue cinta mati sama math. Karena Cuma di mata pelajaran itu gue gak perlu belajar. All I have to do is understanding the logic and all the answer will come to you. Setiap jawaban ada di setiap soal. Berbeda dengan mata pelajaran lain yang jawabannya ada di dalam buku yang sebelumnya kita baca.

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Dan SMA datang, gue ketemu sama yang namanya ekonomi. Ekonomi pun sama seperti matematika. Setiap jawaban ada di setiap soal, yang perlu kita mengerti itu Cuma logic dari setiap theorem yang dimaksud oleh setiap soal.

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Tapi sekarang ini gue dikasih sebuah pertanyaan yang gak ada jawabannya. Dan gue benci banget karena pertanyaan ini gak bisa diukur oleh matematika, tidak bisa diprediksi?

seperti ekonomi, dan tidak bisa dihapal seperti biologi. Damn life!

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PS:

I thought life after death you?ve had experience would make you appreaciate your life more.

I thought you would be handle your life a little bit right.

But Instead you still try to throw away life and moments as if it was free gift.

Or maybe we both are having a little misunderstanding on how appreciating life

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PS2:

Einstein Time Relativity said that Time is different in every each one of us. This would meant that the ?time understanding and recognition? for each and one of human or being is different. To the sun it would just a blink of an eye to the human it is his life time. To you maybe I?m just a blink of an eye to me it feels like forever. And based on this notion, I could predict my age. This theory of time relativity is what making me believe that I will die young. Because my ?time understanding and recognition? is way very good other than other people. So it would be just fair if I die young. But then again I might be wrong understanding his time relativity.

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But then comes the general relativity this is the best part of all einstein theory. Basically everything is relative to other. With this notion, one cannot measure love until someone stop running and stay still thus he can measure love at its true (anchored) value. But this means that one can only measure love when someone is not in love. But when not in love, love would meant nothing so even when someone stop he wouldn?t have the need to measure love. This is what I call, ?Love Paradox?.

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Thanks to my friends at Junior High School, Paldi Montamy and Aria Wiratama that introduces me way too much into quantum physics. Damn you guys. You should have let me alone.

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PS3:

I should have become plato..

Damsel in Distress

Beberapa waktu lalu teman baik gue pernah bilang, ?oh zhar, kayaknya elo kena sindrom itu deh, damsel in distress?. Damsel in distress adalah sebuah keadaan dimana seorang wanita biasanya wanita yang sangat menarik memiliki masalah dengan seseorang atau monster atau iblis atau mahluk ajaib lainnya. Dalam arti memiliki masalah biasanya berhubungan dengan penyiksaan baik itu penyiksaan batin maupun fisik.

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Memang sudah beberapa kali gue perhatikan memang gue sepertinya terkena, ?Hero Syndrome?. Bahwa pria harus lebih superior dibanding perempuan dan harus bisa menyenangkan perempuan atau bisa membawa pergi kesedihan perempuan. Dan entah dari mana asal pemikiran itu tapi itulah yang gue anut dari kecil. Okay! Kamu yang dibelakang sana bener. Loser Thoughts.

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Tapi sekarang kita pikir-pikir lagi kenapa sih selalu perempuan menarik yang dibenci oleh evil karakter? Mungkin karena memang perempuan menarik itu harus dibenci? Take Cinta Laura for Example. Which my photographer friends says, ?Annoying bitch! Untung cantik jadi gak napa2 deh?.

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Kemaren my old female friend has spoken to me in phone. Pretty short conversation but very enlightening. Kurang lebih begini,

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?How?s your life??

?sucks?

?Fallen for another wrong man again??

?Yes?

?I understand, beautiful woman is dangerous?

?And so handsome man?

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Another paradox in life is that you?d rather to not go with beautiful woman in your life because they would be too hot to handle wait until they got old and they become a lot easier but there is pointless to mate with someone that is not beautiful and It beats the purpose of love and mating itself. So here we go trapped in our mind and heart (or penis / vagina).

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Pria di era tersebut seperti gue melihat wanita sebagai sebuah achievement sebagai sesuatu yang harus diperlakukan dengan lembut dan diperlakukan seperti ratu. Bukan sebagai day to day servant or day to day you?ve got no choice to be with her or just another face in short years of my life. Mereka bisa menyatakan bahwa perempuan tersebut adalah ?Raison d?etre? the reason to life.

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Tapi lihat perempuan jaman sekarang yang kita lihat. Betapa banyak lagu patah hati lagi yang dinyanyikan oleh pria. Dan mereka bilang wanita sejak dulu di jajah pria. Kalo kata orang negro Oh yeah hell right. Wait until we talk about your shit. Hehehe…Kalo kata chris rock, ?Nobody cares about men….when they see a man and a dog….they say poor dog….we should give the dog something to eat?….Women know the weaknesses in society and really exploit the hole with their own different feminist jargon that means the same thing…Again chris rock said, ?Women want everything?

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So, Damsel in Distress….Maybe I should start let go my BDSM Fetishism….Hehehe….

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At the end of this blog I would like to tell you why there are a lot of damsel in distress in my life. The reason kenapa gue banyak cewek damsel in distress between my life itu karena gue good guy. And good guy always around a damsel in distress. Some Cuma jadi dukun curhat / tong sampah. The others becoming my girl friend.

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If there is a chick with loser magnet. Then I am a guy with magnet to chick with loser magnet. Hehehehe….

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Me and Microblogging

Not so long ago we know shout out facilities in Friendster. And not so long again facebook had created another facilities that looks a lot like friendster shout out but then they add notes so people can do blogging. And not so long ago A website dedicated to do only shouting, that is twitter. Or in the term we know nowadays as microblogging.

Micro bloggin ini enak. Addictive. and simple. Semua orang bisa melakukannya. Orang gak perlu nulis yang panjang-panjang untuk membuat sesuatu itu berarti. Dengan beberapa line of words sebuah Micro Blogging yang baik bisa membuat sebuah pembicaraan yang panjang dan never ending.

Dan akhir-akhir ini gue rada addicted dengan micro blogging. So daripada gue memenuhi blog gue ini dengan banyak sesuatu yang gak berguna. Mending I stop the real blog and start micro blogging. Kalau blogging seseorang mencoba menjelaskan sesuatu tanpa adanya rahasia atau ketidak jelasan. Micro Bloggin ini lebih unik, mereka haruslah sebuah riddle untuk membuat micro bloggin menarik. Menurut saya sendiri yah ini. Disitu kita bisa membuat sebuah pembicaraan. Dan micro blogging bisa lebih banyak tematiknya bahkan termasuk tematik pribadi yang orang lain gak perlu tau. Karena adanya riddle (teka-teki) di dalam micro bloggin tersebut.

Gue sendiri memulai micro blogging ini beberapa tahun yang lalu. Bedanya micro blogging itu gue padatkan dalam sebuah blog. Yang mana zhar maksud lo? Itu lho semua ps (post script) yang gue taro disemua blog gue. Itulah micro blogging gue. Banyak banget yang cuma baca PS gue dibanding blog gue yang panjang. But that is personal references. Karena PS gue lebih banyak pribadi dibanding blog gue.

So, of I go micro blogging again

PS:

My whole life is enigmatic paradox.

I know what I’ve to do to achieve success.

But I won’t do it because I thought “Let’s take the hard path”.

or “There is no easy way only the hard way”

God I hate myself.

PS2:

Love is just an impulse in a brain.

I know how to get the impulse.

But I act romantically stupid by believing that love exists.

So I stop pushing the button and get slapped by reality.